Chicago-based disabled alt model
booking and inquiry:
Prepare for a long rant in the coming days, I’m getting really upset with how a whole lot of photographers have been behaving towards me lately… :( :(
Likewise, unfortunately. :(
I seem to have the best of luck attracting the wrong kinds of photographers. As of late, I was pressured into a situation by a photographer that I had shot with before, that I wasn’t comfortable in at all. This is where my disability turns into a liability for my safety. I can’t fight off a grown man twice my size. Even if my size, I still wouldn’t be able to do it. I am now forced to carry two self-defense weapons, and be accompanied by another artist, (just so happens to be my fiancée,) as an escort/bodyguard. Almost 100% of models- nude or otherwise- will be propositioned for sex, while ~43% of these models actually are sex-workers. Yet we can’t find any statistics on the percentage of photographers being rapists. Wanna know why? Because the majority of sexual attacks go unreported, especially in the modeling world. Why especially here? Because the case gets turned on us, the victims. I’ve heard of nude figure models credibility stripped because of her occupation. Police said, “Oh, you take your clothes off for money? So you’re pretty much a prostitute…” Thought she was filing a rape report, now she’s being charged with solicitation. So, no, we can’t go to the one place we should feel at ease being in. We know the media isn’t going to make a change in views or morale any time soon, so we need to fight this scum that taints the beauty of our community from the inside. I write this in hopes of spreading it to other models, (and togs!) making them aware of the dangers we face and the hardships we have to overcome to continue doing what we love.
I lost a session with a painter today, because I informed him yesterday that I had recently been through a traumatic event, (recent as in the day before yesterday,) and that Id be bringing an escort for my peace of mind. He said I was unprofessional for dropping it on him, and he no longer wished to work with me. This is the shit that needs to stop, the shit I just cannot wrap my brain around. I had to be accomidating and not charge him because he said he couldn’t pay, but I really liked his art so all I asked for was train fare. I ask for mutual understanding and get dropped. I understand that escorts can be distracting sometimes, (that’s a debate for another day,) but no one wants to hear anyone else out anymore. If models are supposed to blindly trust photographers without question, photographers need to trust models too. Its not fair that my fiancée trusts me, but has to come along to shoots because my general safety is at risk. Its kinda hard to carry concealed mace when you’re naked!
If anyone wants to talk they can inbox or fan mail me, I do respond privately if asked, and anonymous is always on.
Oooo idk probably doggy, or jackhammer. I mean it really depends, how sensitive I am, how big he is…
And thank you very much!
Thank you! Likewise dude.
Its a pain/sensitivity disorder, you randomly hurt everywhere, and because you do your muscles tense up into immensely painful knots. No one for sure knows what causes it, they hypothesize its caused by severe trauma, emotional, physical… So severe that it short-circuits your nervous system and turns on your fight-or-flight response, and it stays on. Most people have other systematic problems that accompany fibro like types of arthritis, digestive problems, weak immune systems, emotional problems, etc. (Ex, I have arthritis, vertigo, anxiety, spondilolesthsis,kidney calcification, plus other stuff .) Because they don’t know what causes it, there is no cure, there are only ways to “manage” your pain. Usually through physical therapy, a combination of medicines, massage therapy, regular therapy. Some people can manage better than others. Some have jobs and pretty normal lives, others can’t get out of bed, some have a combination of the two, or are somewhere in the middle.
Oh and guys CAN get it/have it too, its just less common because its more missdiagnosed in men since it was originally thought that only women could have it.
Theyre better than they were before, but I still wouldn’t sign up. With the amount of energy that goes into my work, I’m not looking to submit a ton of sets that may or may not make me an SG. Especially when they can still profit off of my content even if I’m a “hopeful.” I’m actually looking into Zivity right now.
Hmm, I’ve never really seen it like that. I’ve always considered a troll to have to harass you more than once, otherwise its just a passing asshat. I guess you guys are right, though. God I can’t remember all of these rules I feel so ollllldd lol
They didn’t succeed, I was elaborating because some other people might not understand what it actually is, not to try and convince him otherwise. I’ve been on Tumblr for a few years, so I was totally expecting people like anon to come out of the woodwork. Everyone has bad days, thanks for the virtual hug, though. Means a lot. :)
Anon is an option that ignorant assholes take so they don’t get reamed in the ass by the followers of the people they grossly offend, and thus allowing them to continue to look saintly in the eyes of their followers.
I can’t even get over the amount of absurdity you just stuffed into this message.
Fibromyalgia is so REAL and incomprehensibly PAINFUL I wouldn’t even wish it on YOU.
I so don’t need this today. Of course Id get this on a day where I’m bed-bound from my pain and can’t walk so much as to the bathroom by myself because it feels like my bones and joint are about to shatter… You really have no idea.
Please, would you everso kindly FUCK OFF
I have fibromyalgia with chronic fatigue, arthritis, vertigo that’s so severe I can’t drive, and acute anxiety. I have a shit ton of other medical problems too, but those are the most qualifying ones.
Any of my followers spoonies too?